Wednesday, December 22, 2010

♥被逼出来的成熟♥

copy from other but is very meaningful..♥♥♥


哭的时候没人哄,我学会了坚强;
怕的时候没人陪,我学会了勇敢;
烦的时候没人问,我学会了承受;
累的时候没人可以依靠,我学会了自立......

就这样我找到了自己,
原来我很优秀,更可贵的是,世界上,
我只有一个,只有一个我!

渐渐地,我成熟了,
知道了人是被逼出来的,
只有压力才有动力,因为没有更大的不如意,
所以现在的不如意也是幸福的!

想要成蝶的蛹就要破茧,
想要重生的凤凰就要蘖磐,
就要坚强,即使独自悲伤,
也不要去乞求怜悯
嗟来的是廉价的,赶上的是便宜的,
在追求美好的同时不要失去自我,要始终做我自己,
只有自己才拥有自己全部的风格,谁也模仿不了,真实的你没有盗版!

相信自己可以撑起属于自己的那片蓝天~是马就应去驰骋草原,
是鹰就该去翱翔天宇,而我只需要做好我自己!
生活所迫又怎样,环境不好又怎样,困难大又怎样,这一切都需要你自己去打拼!
拼不出来就找个地盘老实呆着!

这社会谁会可怜你啊!
谁不是从挨打过来的,谁不是从孙子混过来的吖。
不能主宰别人就管好自己,给自己个机会去重生,
被逼出来的你才是蜕变的英雄,把握好这个机会,去展示全新的自己,
我永远都相信“爱拼才会赢”     

爱上等于哀伤,宁可高傲的发霉,也不低调的凑合。
无聊时看看书,孤独时找个最好的朋友聊聊,
多疼疼自己,健康是一切的本钱。
不要过分去强求不属于自己的东西,
因为那样毫无意义,潇洒的放下该放下的,
去活出自己的精彩!

Friday, November 12, 2010

I'm not genius

I'm not genius...
I'm just a trainee and NOT an engineer
why I been here is just hope to learn smtg from here
how I gonna plan for myself wat can I do for the followong month regarding the process..
I nt familiar v the process..
how I gonna simplify..
how I gonna cut it..
how I gonna implement it..
am I look like genius???
am I an engineer???
am I familiar v the process???
am I work at here for long long time???
am I???
PLEASE
I just a student...
plz don tell me "engineer mus think themself wat they need to do.nt juz do wat boss ask u to do.should think wat else u can do."
If no ppl guide me..why I come here for???
If i noe the way to do it by myself...
I no need been here!!!
I no need intern here!!!
I no need u guy guide me!!!
I HATE BEEN HERE!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Maybe I’m not enough strong

Maybe I’m not enough strong

I had endure for 3 weeks already

Maybe u all not really understand me
Maybe I never tell u all what I had face at here
Maybe I think that is my own problem so I just keep it and never tell u all

I not that kind of ppl which don noe mix with other
I not that kind of ppl which always keep silent
I not that kind of ppl prefer alone
But…
My team just got 2 ppl here
What can I do??
My supervisor always eat alone
And other team ppl like treat me as a mirror
Maybe they just tot my supervisor will bring me go eat with him??
I don noe..also don feel like want to guess anymore already
Is tired for me >.<

I got try a lot of way to mix with them
I also got ask them next time asks me for lunch…
But what I get…
Is just been ignore…

When I ask them “can teach me what u all doing now”
They will just ask me go complete what I support to do 1st..

At the beginning, I tot ”maybe after finish all my task they will teach me extra thing ”
But …guess what they say after i finish my task??
“since u gt nothing to do now, then I ask ur supervisor no need pay you salary for today la ”
What can I answer him??
Should I tell him I finish my entire thing as fast as I can after u say can teach me a new thing??
Can I?? I can’t!!!
At that moment I just feel sad and disappointed
And now I really give up
I don’t want keep servilely require them to wait for me lunch or teach me anything

And please don keep say me “我没有主
Is hurt …

Lastly, I just want to apologize
Sorry for make u all shocked
Sorry for spoil all ur mood
Sorry Sorry Sorry

I will try to be more strong !!!

Thursday, October 21, 2010

my internship life

Before i come for my internship ,i will think tat:
maybe will quite interesting and happy for me
maybe i can make a lot of new frens
maybe i can learn a lot of practical thing
maybe n maybe....

when once i come here:
there are no frens mix with me
there are totally bored
there are totally nt related to wat i learned

when once i at here, i juz feel like when can i finish my internship
is suffer for me!!!
especially when during lunch time
who can imagine tat such a big company with such a lot of ppl
but ...
no ppl will ask u for lunch
no ppl will ask u join them
no ppl will care how u settle ur lunch

i still remember,at first,one of them gt promise to me will call me for lunch with them together
because she noe tat i having my lunch alone
but ...
at last she never ask me at all until now >.<

even the uncle at the food stall oso better than them
at least he wil ask me "why u eat alone de,so pity de"
wat can i tell him??
should i say because i gt no frens??
so at tat moment, i juz feel like wanna cry
but i din do tat
i trust tat without any frens, i oso can settle all my thing alone
so i juz gv him a smile and continue eat my lunch
anyway
uncle, thx for ur concern, i really appreciate it.

so i choose to eat my breakfast at home n skip my tea time
coz i noe there will no such a person ask u to join them have breakfast,lunch or tea time together

when feel like helpless, gt no ppl can help u
when feel like sad, gt no ppl can console u
when feel like wan mix v them, they like treat u as a glass

and today...
suddenly one of them come n ask me again"how u settle ur lunch today,izit eat with ur bf?"
wat can i say??
should i tell him u all ignore me since i at here until now??
can i??
i don dare!!!
i juz can tell him "mostly i eat alone..."
and he promise to me AGAIN "next time i call u join us la"..
should i trust tat ??
i don noe ...
i don wan to make myself feel disappointed AGAIN
don dare to pay so high expectation already!!!

WITHOUT U ALL, I ALSO CAN HANDLE IT!!!
Lastly and the most important thing is..
i juz want to thx my bf
if without him, i really can't endure until now
thx him for accompany me msg during my lunch time and let me feel tat i am nt alone all the time
thx him for accompany me when i feel bored
thx him for concern about me ^^

Thursday, May 6, 2010

伪装

copy from fren de...juz wanna share out only..^.^
 
明明很想哭,却还在笑。

明明很在乎,却装作无所谓。

明明很想留下,却坚定的说要离开。

明明很痛苦,却偏偏说自己很幸福。

明明忘不掉,却说已经忘了。

明明放不下,却说他是他,我是我。

明明舍不得,却说我已经受够了。

明明说的是违心的假话,却说那是自己的真心话。

明明眼泪都快溢出眼眶,却高昂着头。

明明已经无法挽回,却依旧执着。

明明知道说这样的话会伤害他,却忍着心疼装作轻松的说出口。

明明知道自己很受伤,却说你不必觉得欠我的。

明明这样『伪装』着很累,却还得依旧……
 
lik some of the sentences... ^.^

Thursday, February 18, 2010

怀念

怀念小时候的新年…

小时候的气氛…

小时候的我们…

小时候的我们是无恶不作的恶魔

天真无邪的嬉戏,玩闹,捣蛋

甚至吵闹也无伤感情

过了五秒又嘻嘻哈哈的玩闹

虽然顽皮了点

可是到处都充满了欢乐的笑声

小孩子的嬉闹声

长辈们的高谈阔论声…

不知打什么时候开始

剩下的只是长辈们的高谈阔论声…

也许大家都长大了不再捣蛋了

也许久没见面了不再熟悉了

也许大家的话题再也不同了

也许吧…

Recall

Just recall back all my memory today when chatting with my pretty cousin…^.^

Still remember what we had done when we are child…

Never help our parents at all and just get them in trouble…>.<

Eat don’t want eat properly

Sit also don’t want sit properly

Chase each other from the living room till the kitchen

Although been scold by our parents but still don’t wanna stop it

Yearn towards all those memory….^.^

Thursday, December 24, 2009

~Injured~

My toe is bleeding n bengkak.

Even walk oso pain

T_T